B L U E P R I N T
I used to feel like I was never supposed to like the color blue, and I think that’s what made me hate blue.
Blueprint is a work about processing trauma and becoming yourself. It explores the desire for the color blue and the reason for hating the color in the past. Through a combination of text and cyanotypes, it creates a self-portrait of the present, past and future and the ability to love blue as a means of healing.
Blueprint also refers to my transition. By leaving your blueprint behind and creating a new one. Becoming your true self, the blueprint you were meant to be.
Blue like a deep depth
Blue like overflowing everything
Blue is like breathing in a darker dark
Blue shadows
The last particles of a forgotten pain
I exist in a new reality
Blue as quietude
Blue as silence
Being blue like me
The room is blue
I want to breath and be
The room is blue
I want to be and speak
The room is blue
But the room is no longer blue for I have become it
And I have seen the blue behind my eyes
I want to scream that it hurts
But it's quiet inside
While my body wants to let go
And my head allows it more and more
My soul searches for breath
And blue
I wish i would have been able to love blue sooner